VD and beyond

Valentine’s Day has come and gone, and once again I leave a holiday feeling screwed. R’s assistant scheduled him for a meeting in a town 4 hours away that started at 2 pm and lasted 2.5 hours. So he didn’t get home until after 8. I went to the club and worked out. I need to do that more than I do now, so I am trying to take more time for myself and get it done. That and I am not happy about where my weight is so…off to the club I went.

While there I got to thinking about the gift I got him and what he had been talking about getting me over the past month and a half or so and I thought I’d better get him something else. To quote Julia Roberts, “Big mistake. Big. Huge!” I got him a camcorder and a Ferrari buyer’s guide. I got a plastic pair of binoculars (a joke gift) and a sample pack of massage oils. Really? Really!?! I’m not as materialistic as this sounds (because believe me I KNOW it sounds bad) but REALLY??  COME ON! Did you stop at Walgreen’s on your way home to get me my gift? At that point let’s just agree not to get gifts for each other. If you are not going to put ANY thought into it at all, then just forget it.

So I go to bed not really all that happy and I wake up even less happy. I power on the computer to print something out for the new house and the track pad on the laptop won’t work. That damned kid turned it off! I know I’m going to sound selfish here, but why can’t she just leave the damned thing alone!?! Why can’t she leave the settings alone and not mess with them? Is there a reason she needs to mess with it and change things? That kid has caused us to get more viruses than I ever had prior to their grubby little selves moving in. RAWR!

Then R turns to me and says, “Can you just fax that for me? I just don’t have time.” When did I become his secretary? You don’t have time to push a few buttons? I KNOW you wouldn’t be doing it anyway; his assistant at work would do it. But OBVIOUSLY I have time to do it. Right? Negatory ghost rider.

But unlike him I made time to do it. I am so frustrated. I need some time with my girlfriends. I need some time away for a while. But when do I get to do that??? Never is the answer. I rarely get more than a few hours a week alone. And never are those hours consecutive and at a time where I could meet up with my girlfriends and de-stress. Sigh. I need some girlfriend time.